ENGAGEMENT OF THE WAY BACK #3

Part 3

by : Hesti Noviyanti

After school, he was following me. During walking, we hadn’t even a conversation until we’re arriving in the edge of the river. I know the situation. So, I started to talk.

“Yesterday… please forgive me.” He was giving attention to the grass and turning his head on me. “Immediately, I went home first and left you.”

“Ah…” His cheeks were getting red, “That time, umm.., I didn’t mean it. I, only…”

“Yea?”

“Actually…” I cut his saying.

“My Mom said, she’ll marry again. Then, about it, I think I can’t happy as her.” I was putting my head down. So I didn’t how’s his expression, “Because, I don’t really know about that guy.” Oh God, what was I saying? Why I told it to him? But Hendri, if the one hear it, he will…

Hendriatmo was only saying nothing and staying in his place without even a little move.

“Hendri?” I tried to catch the situation.

“That guy…” Now, he was putting his head down, “Is my dad.”

I was surprised.

“Before I came here, I had been knowing about the plan of their marriage. I also heard about you, Kristy. And I want to know you closer. I want to make them don’t worry about us because we are not feel what their think. And then…”

I slapped his left cheek.

“Then… THAT IS WHY YOU ALWAYS TREATING ME GOOD?! THAT IS WHY YOU TRYING TO BE TOO FRIENDLY TO ME?! AT FIRST, IT IS ALL YOU’VE BEEN PLANNED TO MAKE ME FEEL SO FRIENDLY BY YOU, ISN’T IT???!!!” My tears didn’t be held anymore, “YOU, YOU ONLY SILENT SEEING ME… WITHOUT GIVING ME KNOW ANYTHING?!” Tears were pouring down.

Yeah, Mom also asked. It was impossible if he will be on same school with me. But because she knew, she was testing me.

“No. No… I didn’t mean it.” He tried to explain but I didn’t want to hear a thing.

“YOU’RE A LIER!!!”

“I, I ain’t lie. I just wanna know how you look like. So I keep it by myself for giving you a surprise.”

“YOU THINK I’LL BE GLAD WITH YOUR SURPRISE TO ME?! NO ONE THINKS ABOUT MY FEELING EVEN A LITTLE!!”

“It… IT IS NOT TRUE!!” He grabbed his hand so hard while screaming, “IT IS BECAUSE ME, WHO CAN’T TELL IT TO YOU!! AND THEN, THE MORE I’M GETTING CLOSER TO YOU, THE MORE I CAN’T TELL YOU THE TRUTH!!”

I’ll be a elder brother- younger sister  with Hendriatmo, won’t I?! Somebody please tell me it is not true!!

“BECAUSE… Because… I always thinking about you, Kristy!!”

What?! Pardon me?!

“Go home! Don’t ever follow me, anymore!” I said it with crying.

He stood still. Then for a few minutes later, he turned his head opposite of me, and leaving me alone.

I’m so sorry. When I’m with you, it is only happiness and happiness. Although we can’t talk with relax, always nervous and stutter, but he’s always waiting for me. And, little by little, that feel appears… If in the end will be end before it being started, I don’t need this feeling!

It was bad evening. I came home with no spirit.

“Hello, deary. How’s your day in class? Thanks God you’re not being rained again.” Mom welcomed me with her great smile.

I passed her and was keeping straight to the bedroom. Leaving, and saying nothing to her.

“I washed your uniform. If you want to change your wearing, I put in on…”

“BAM!!” I closed my door consciously.

She stared me with a weird stare.

“Hendri, today is your duty and me to clean our class.” Agan gave him a broom to clean the class after school.

“K.” Hendri reached that broom.

He passed me to get his bag to go home. I bet he realized that I saw him, but she stood still.“Sky so cloudy. I hope it won’t rain so we can play football in the yard. You must join us, Hen!!” Agan was saying while brooming the class, but Hendri gave no attention to him. He was thinking about something. Unusual he looked so silence today.

In the edge of the river, I was sitting on comfey grass. I opened the diary that Hendri gave to me. Hmm… unconsciously, I wrote too many on it. There were still enough spaces for I write again. What? Again?! Umm… should I remove it? Oh Dad, can u give a solution to me?

“Icy, Icy… Come here, sweety.” Dad called me and I turned my head on him, “Look! It is stopping.” He reached  little insect which was flying on the grass on the edge of the river. “Give me your hand, sweety.” Dad put that insect on my finger.

“Don’t do something sudden, honey.” Mom was trying to keep it on my own.

I was smiling and feeling itchy because of the legs of that insect., “What is it, Dad?”

“It’s a dragonfly, sweety.” Dad talked to close to me, so that insect was flying away.

“Aaaah..” we’re all regretting it was gone but with smiling.

Why we can’t always together? Why Mom is just like what  she was? Why friend can’t always be friend? Dad… Answer my question!! Dad!!! I need your suggestion!! Why don’t you just here to help me??! How dare you are!!

I tried to torn the diary I was holding on.

“Want to torn it?” Suddenly I heard a voice behind me, a known voice.

“It looks like a diary that I gave to you.” Hendri came to me with his smiling that I really love with it.

I was keeping on to torn it.

“KRISTY!!” He was trying to stop me.

“No!! Let me torn this!” I said randomly and started to cry.

“Kristy.”

“Just leave me alone!! I don’t need anybody for now!!”

“Please Kristy, give me a chance to explain to you.”

“I’ve been explained! And now we’ll be an elder brother-young sister, won’t we?”

“KRISTY!!”

“Because our parents…” I stopped his saying, and crying loudly, “Hoaaaaaaaaa!!” I put my body on his breast and crying.

I know. I really know. He didn’t mean… to hurt me.

He hug me warmly.

“My mom died because of sick when I was child.” We were sitting on the grass.

Now I was feeling more calm.

He continued, “I didn’t really understand, because she was disappear suddenly. Every time I cry, Dad always say, ‘C’mon, keep spirit!!’ And I always think why is he fine by the time Mom was disappear? But then, about five years later, I saw him crying with whispering my Mom’s name.” He was pushing and pulling his breath, “I bet he always feels sad. I’m not worry again after that. Because illustration of Mom never go away from his mind, I when I heard he wants to marry again, I wish he’ll be happy.”

“it is…” I erased a tear on my cheeks, “So different with mine. My Mom separated with Dad because she hates Dad much. I only remember the things that happened in this edge of the river when I was still with Dad. But not too long, it all will be lost. Everything will be forgotten.”

“Everything? It is impossible.” He looked at me with his nice smiling, “It will be remembered again. Until how many times it can’t be counted.”

I was feeling something that couldn’t be pour it on words.

When the dragonflies are flying…

When we’re walking on this edge of the river…

When the grass is moving by the wind…

Will this feeling never remove?

“Me too… Never forget this edge of the river.” He smiled at the river.

I turned my head on him.

He continued, “Every time walks behind you, I always feel confuse. Where I should take first, as elder brother-younger sister, or … I always want to say it, but… I don’t know how…” He stopped for awhile, “Love. Love that isn’t as brother-sister, but love that know you as a girl. I love you, Kristy.”

I shocked.

“Aa… yeah I know we’ll be elder-younger brother but … maybe someday we can…”

I was shocking more.

He put his hand on his mouth,  “Oops. Sorry, I don’t mean it. I mean…”

I put a little smile on my lips and turn my head on him, “Is it ‘always’?” My cheeks were getting red, “Always together, ever after? Just like when we’re walking here?”

He grabbed my hand, “I promise.” He gave his greatest smile to me.

For this moment that I think great, maybe I will write it not on my diary. Let me write in on saying.

“I love you too, Hendri.” I was whispering on his ears. I saw, his cheeks were getting red too.

A secret promise that was made on the unforgettable place, believe, that it will be eternal.

___The End___

ENGAGEMENT OF THE WAY BACK #2

Part 2

by : Hesti Noviyanti

The next morning, when I usually let him busy with his activities, I started to have a talk with him.

“Umm,, Where did you buy that diary?” I asked it randomly.

“Oh, umm, not really far from the Cyber you have shown when we went home together at first time. I thought it was pretty, so I…” I cut it because I know what’ll he say next and I didn’t want he feels annoyed by me.

“You found it there?! It must be kidding?! Why I never see it? Actually, I love that diary.” I smiled at him unconsciously.

He looked surprised, then he put smile on his smile. As usual, a cute smile that I really want to see it for now and so on.

“I just never realize that near Cyber sells cute diary like this. I think, the one who don’t really know places is me.”

               “Special edition?!” Ambar appeared to us and our minds was scattering because of her. “Is it a dress?! Let it show to me. I hope that is a cute dress so I can wear it on next satnite.”“You know what, the storekeeper said that this is a special edition. Whenever you go there, you won’t see anymore. That’s a special edition of the year.”

Hendriatmo laughed a little, “We’re talking about the frying pan that Kristy will use in her kitchen. And I found a goody-cheap one. Do you want to me to buy you, Mbar?” He teased her.

“Ouch… Thanks, but no, thanks.” She left us.

I laughed so tickled because of his teased. Really, I never felt this free laugh before.

‘Hendriatmo Krisandi , that new student said he had been changed his school until three times this year.’ I wrote it down in my cute diary.

‘He very loves the environment here. This is he never felt in his former schools.’ I continued wrote and wrote in any circumstances.

‘When he tried to catch a dragonfly near the edge of the river, he almost fell to the river.’ In any circumstances on my life, I never forget to write it down on the diary. Formerly, I wasn’t so diligent like this. But I felt this was more interesting.

“Whoaaaa!! How hot today is!!” Sighed Hendri while bringing Mrs. Puteri’s books to the teacher’s room.

“Yeah. It’s too hot. It’ll be nice if we eat ice cream. So, after school, let’s buy two ice creams . It’ll be great.” I said it randomly while bringing Mrs. Puteri’s stuff to. “Then, we eat it while walking to home.” I smiled at him.

He stared at me. Looked shocked. Oh God, what I have said? Whereas he haven’t follow me yet.

“Um,, if everybody sees us eat ice cream beside the river, it has to you to be blame, have you?” He laughed with a weird-unusual laugh.

“We’ll be blamed together, will we?” Again, I said that words randomly.

And again, he gave me a weird and shocked stare.

But the fact when we go home,

“Whhhyyyyy!!” Hendri shouted so loud. “Why it has to be raining now?!” He was still shouting loudly while running, trying to find place to be our shelter.

“Just ask the sky.” I couldn’t think anything except running.

“The point is, we can reach that huge bridge.” While running, he gave me his right hand. “C’mon!”

Without thinking so long, I replied his hand.

“Wooow. I feel I’m flying.” He was pulling me so I thought my body so thin to run.

“What flying? Let’s go!!”

Finally, we reached the shelter under the huge bridge. We’re all  sopping wet.

“How hard raining is.” I was trying to tidy myself.

“Yea, we can do nothing. Only sopping wet. Oh God, how’s the ice creams?” He checked a plastic on his left hand. “What a pity. It is being a liquid.”

I laughed freely, again.

He stared at me. But now, he really shocked. I thought, there was a problem with me. Ah yea, my full of body so wet. That was why he could see my bra. I was trying to close it with crossing my hands over my chess. I looked he was bent down and his cheeks were red. We’re all silent at some time.

Want to try to say but I couldn’t.

“K, Kristy.. Um,, I.. um..” Hendri started a talk. And I thought I knew what he’d say.

I left him. I was going home across the hard rain at that time.

I didn’t know what I was doing now. But I really truly didn’t know why I felt so scared by him. Why?!

“Poor deary..” Mom was pouring me a cup of a hot water, “I thought you’ve fallen to the river. I’ll prepare your another school uniform.”

I was eating the soup slowly while feeling a little bit cold, “OK.”

We were doing supper on the dining room as night before. She looked so worry knowing my condition after being poured by hard raining.

“Kristy…” Mom said with a little sound and worry, I guess.

“Yes, Mom?” I was putting my spoon which full of rice and some dish.

“Ummm…” Mom was stopping cutting her dish meat, “May I marry again?”

Her words were shocking me, much. Marry? Was it a dream? I’ll have a new dad, won’t I? Oh God, what I have to do? No, what should I answer?

“How’s dear?” Mom looked a little worry.

“Ah, yea. Congrats, Mom.” A smile was painting on my lips. A full of worrying smile.

‘Marry? My Mom will marry with a guy who I don’t know who he is. Is daddy not my daddy again? Then, the one who I don’t know …’ “What stuff that I’m writing?” I was tearing the paper I had been writing.

What should I do? Someone… please someone, help me.

“Ah, Hi…” Hendri was greeting me then passing me soon.

“Mor… ning…” And he had been leaving me. I hold my books on chess so hard. Till I couldn’t breath. Till I couldn’t think, anymore.

“HENDRIATMO!!” Everybody was staring at me weirdly. And I found that he was turning his head on me. I was walking to him to talk normally. He hadn’t any avoiding, “There’s something I need to talk. Let us go home together after school.”

He said nothing.

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ENGAGEMENT OF THE WAY BACK #1

Part I 

by: Hesti Noviyanti

                “Kristy… Kristy…!!” Shouted my friends.

                I turned my head into them.

                “You know what, the exchange student that we’ve talked before is a guy.” Said Muti.

                “He looks cool.” Ambar continued it with full of spirit.

                “You’re all have seen him, are you?” I said with no feeling. Of course, because I never see him. What should I happy for?

                “I bet he’ll take seat behind you.” Ambar teased me. And I realize that there is an empty chair behind my seat. “You’ll enjoy that circumstances that you’re able to talk to much.”

                Bel was ringing.

                “Let’s take our own seat. Mr. Ferry will come soon.” Said a sound from student in crowded so I wasn’t able hear that voice clearly.

                “As I ever told that we’ll have new friend in our class. Start from today, Hendriatmo Krisandi will study here.” Mr. Ferry introduced a guy that had a nice performance. Not really handsome, but I could say that he’s looking good.

                “You see? He’s quite sweet, is he?” Ambar was having a great smile when the new student was introducing himself. And I just was nodding my head and giving her a little smile.

The class started to crowded again. They’re talking about that new guy. And yeah, recently, everybody’s talking about him. How about me? I don’t really care about that. What’s the different if there are one or more students in this class? But, only hearing they’re talking about him is enough to make a little smile in my lips. Hmmm… If we’ve tried to love someone then, when we don’t feel love them again, what’ll happen next? Well, it is not impossible that parents do divorce. I looked the sky. It has some fluctuative shapes.

                “… that is his story. Oh yea, your seat is in an empty chair in corner of the class. Just take a seat, Hendri.” Mr. Ferry showed the place that he meant by his right index finger.

Oops, I didn’t realize that introduction was over. I saw that new student walked close to me. I got his eyes. He caught my eyes, too. What happened? We’re in gaze. I stuck on my last style for awhile when he passed me.

                “Nice to meet you. Hope we’ll be a good friend.” He gave his greatest smile to me that I ever seen before.

What was his mean?

The fifth lesson passed. While waiting for next lesson, we’re all talking and made the class crowded. My friends and I found that the new student was gathering, laughing, and even talking much and guys around him was giving their attention to him.

“He’s a friendly one. He is able to socialize in short time to another students.” Said a sound that I didn’t really sure whose that sound’s belong to.

“Yea. I found he was talking to students in corner during the lessons.” Another sound continued.

I was getting curious to that new student. I stole a look of him.

“Kristy Novianty, you want to go home? May I accompany you?” He asked while I started to reach my bag.

What he said? “Accompany me?” I bet I had a mishearing.

“Show me some good places here. Your house is the farthest of all, is it? C’mon!” He reached his bag.

What’s this?! I never go home from school with a guy before!!

But it’ll be so dare if I reject it. So, we were going home TOGETHER. Yes, TOGETHER. At the first time. With someone who I already knew at the morning.

“That is a biggest Cyber here. You can play Online Games whenever you want because I never catch them close their store.” I showed him while we’re walking and passing that place slowly.” He’s staring at that Cyber. Didn’t really know what’s his expression. But I think he’s not really interest. “Umm, I usually go home by the edge of this river. We’ll go in ourselves way.”

“Edge of river? Sounds good. I’ll follow you.”

“Ah? O, OK.” Is he will follow me until my house?!

Not really far we’re walking. That new student surprised me.

“Wooooooooooooow!! How great the river is! Apparently, there’s a great place around here. I have no idea about this before.”

“This is only an ordinary river. What’s the great of it? But yeah, the edge so large I admit.”

“No. It is great. I found there is no a narrow street, whereas this place is so far. Hmm… but, if there’s a great place like this, I’ll keep go home from school with walking rather than ride my motorcycle.”

I said nothing. Well, I don’t believe that will there is a guy who think that this place is great. Yeah, out of my prediction.

“Kristy, can you show me where’s a counter? My load is out. But I want tell my old friends about my new school to them by phone but I haven’t reload my load yet. They must be waiting for my news, so I must tell them soon, too.”

Should he does it? Was it not ordinary? But, it’s his business. “The center of counter lies behind my house. If we continue this way a little more, we’ll arrive.”

“It is great to have a same to your house. Let’s go there.”

I surprised for awhile. “Your house lies in the opposite of this way. Why you want to follow me until here?”
                “I only want you to show me the great places around here.”

“Why?! Why it has to be me?! You’ve been friend with all of your classmates. Why don’t you just ask Nabila, Muti, Ambar, Irsan, umm.. who else…?”

“I hope you don’t hate guy.”

I shocked. “Wh, What?!”

“Oh no. I just guess. Sorry. When we are talking, from school until here, you never see my face.  I just think that, do you hate me? I don’t mean anything. Sorry.”

I turned my face into him with feeling amazed.

“If there’s nothing wrong with you, let’s be friend. Will you?”

“O, OK.” Only that words that I could say.

“How’s the new student?” Mom asked me while she was taking plates and that stuff after dinner, “He starts his first day today, is he?”

“Hah? Ah, yea, Mom. His chair is near to me. His on my behind. He’s a friendly guy. Ah ya Mom, tomorrow I’ll take my turn of presentation about biology in front of class. I have to prepare it. Thank’s for the supper, Mom.” I left my Mom. I saw she  stared at me, a weird stare.

It is impossible to tell her that actually I hate guy. If she knows that’s the cause is their divorce, she’ll be blue.

At noon after school, he was just a boy.

“Wooooooooooooow!! How great the river is! Apparently, there’s a great place around here. I have no idea about this before.” And, “No. It is great. I found there is no a narrow street, whereas this place is so far. Hmm… but, if there’s a great place like this, I’ll keep go home from school with walking rather than ride my motorcycle.” Can we become closer and closer if I talk with him normally? “If there’s nothing wrong with you, let’s be friend. Will you?” I was lying on my bed, thinking about something that I don’t really want to think. That words ‘Let’s be friend’... if I ask it to Daddy, what’ll he say to me? Or… Has he forgotten me?

“KRIIISSSSTTTTYYY!! This is a gift as my thanks for you” Hendri gave a little book. Looks cute with ribbon pink.

“Gift? As thanks?” I thought it as a weird moment.

“Yes. Thanks for yesterday. And I’m giving you this diary is because it looks so so pretty so I think you’ll love it.”

“I don’t need it! For your information, I don’t have a habit to tell everything in a diary!”

“You don’t need?” He looked disappointed. “Well, Sorry, I don’t know.” He left me.

When I think he was angry to me, at the time of going home from school, he’s still following me. I couldn’t imagine. I though I’ll go home alone today.

“Umm, here’s so chilly.” He said it because I stared at him unconsciously.

“Ah, yes of course. Oops, I must be hurry. See ya.” I left him alone at the edge of the river.

At the end, I didn’t say thanks for the diary.

Noon went by, I was still thinking about his words, “Yes. Thanks for yesterday. And I’m giving you this diary is because it looks so so pretty so I think you’ll love it.” Actually, I really love this diary. The timing was exact, because my diary was almost full of my writes. Yes, full. And I lied that I don’t like write things on diary. I lied…

‘A guy who gave this diary is a new student in my class. This is the first time I’m making friend with a guy, that is why our conversation still rigid.’ I wrote it down on the pink diary, ‘But actually, I want to talk a lot more with him.’ Unconsciously, I made a little smile on my lips. ‘Brave yourself, Kristy.’ I closed the diary with full of happiness on my heart that smile declared it.

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